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No One Gets M.E!

I sit here today absolutely fed up. I attended the doctor again just yesterday, and now I am being sent back to hospital for an endoscopy and other invasive tests. My GP is excellent as he is very frank and honest with me in claiming his puzzlement. For those of you who don't know my symptoms are: Chronic Fatigue (Some days I do not even have the energy to converse - It's scary when you can barely eat because moving your mouth actually drains your energy so much), chest pains, muscle pains, shortness of breath, dizzy head, lack of concentration, blurred vision and low moods. These are just the more severe ones on top of a liver not functioning properly and only getting worse it seems, going by blood tests at least, and severe problems with my stomach and digestive system. 

But there is a more fundamental reason why I am fed up today. Because of my absence, my work life is taking a massive battering. I have lost clients, one of my businesses is barely hanging on and I still have debtors and creditors acting the 'mick'. But what makes this all so frustrating is I do not have the energy to deal with any of it. I have had many smart comments made to me on top of persistent emails and phone calls questioning my illness. People feel they have a right to ignore my illness when they don't understand it. It has been three months now and people must still seem to think I am pulling some sort of a sickie or something, albeit from my own business. I just wish these same people could understand just how hard it is for me to sit by, helpless, as my absence punishes my business irreparably, while everything I worked so hard for for the last two years gets flushed down the toilet because of this curse of an illness. Maybe then these very people would be not so quick to pass comment or judge too quickly. Perhaps if they read some literature on M.E they might start to understand how badly it affects people! Two years hard work has truly been obliterated in less than 3 months, mostly due to this illness, but partially due to the impatience and lack of compassion offered by others... If or when I ever get better, I don't even know if I want to be mixed up in a system so unforgiving... 

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